you poured me in your cup 
but i never measured up
to what you wanted 
from me
or your dreams 
for my future. 

i can see–
i can see 
from the Light 
behind my eyes
that you never were a wise
benign
or humane
creature. 

your mind was brutal.
your heart was insane. 
you always took–
always took
more than you gave–
breaking waves
of hearts
as you dug graves
for a better Life
and a better future.

i complied for a while,
consumed and defiled
by your utility of hostility
against Our true Nature. 

you were still crawling 
when i left you on your belly,
yelling, hissing, insisting 
that the world belongs to you
as you seduced me with your bait
and demanded that i pay you 
with my tears, my blood, my devotion.

i refuse to behave
and i won’t be a slave
to the savage world 
you’ve created.
i will excise your lies
from my flesh,
and consume them
in the flame of Beauty.  

i’ll ascend from the ashes
lashing my heart
to the world i create
for Myself
and for others.

i’ll devour the snake
before it chokes me, 
finally to wake 
the Ouroboros,
charming the shape
of a spiraling coil,
rising from the soil 
of Truth and Beauty
and Life.

the world i knew and defied
will fall   a w a y–
pacified,
and inscribed 
with, “Renewal,” in light,
showering the earth
in flowering peace
and flourishing compassion,
as i dream better worlds
for creation–
absolving, redeeming
my sins and contrition.