SATELLITE dizzy little moon spinning in the room, revolving obliquely, sublimely, and sweetly, tilting like a loon. shine down on me as you peel ripples from the sea of eternity. oh, satellite— you’re dishing it, you’re slinging it into orbit, parting of the waves. particles or waves? no one knows everything these days. I’m getting it— I’m bringing it home— this moment in time is brought to you by the universe and a bottle of wine. live on every station, broadcasting through the air, this is me right here. I’m…read more
bouncing in and out of reality, like stepping on stars— light—dark—light—dark— blink in—blink out— a swirl of color through the prism in between. if I could hold onto a moment and bend it to fit forever where would you be in the fold? tugged out of the song, I separate, now there’s two of me— an observant One fluttering over my skin, the other weighed down by the burdens of sin. am I hearing the song or am I singing along? distortion and static carve edges in the shape of…read more
These are my atoms ticking like clocks, chiming in flocks. this is how I know time flies. and here I am again, spirit spent on trivial things. diamond rings and parcels that spring from clinging desire. highly unstable, this half-life– as my radioactive performance corrodes the condition of moments that remain. so sample my bones. we all die alone, turning to dust, and born once more as fertile earth, nourishing the fields and evening the score before returning for the next revolution.
Every god and every goddess born from a seed of electricity, stretches beyond the sleeping stars and masters their velocity. they rush together, they contemplate their density, they matter. visualize this— a sunflower spinning. a wheel of light painting constellations all through the night. cascades of sound flowing down in sonic liquid mercury, filling the bowl carved of the ear. clay thus transformed. it’s now crystal clear. all of my eyes open at once. All Together now, Thou Legion of One, just show me how life can be won in…read more
sticky, syrupy, soul, drink of the porous presence whose spirit is the nectar that shapes the hands that sew the seeds into the ground, stitching them into the soil, so honeyed lemon petals expand and unroll, spin and unfold forever. velvet planet dusted in gold, shake your soldiers loose and let them fall away into the bruised and empty sky to save the innocent fools still standing in the clay.
Breathe While I Unhinge articulated breath, gather and flow, unbend, unfold, scraping my lungs behold that heartbeat rhythmpushing shrieks through my chest, filling fully, cells expanding, demanding release. tired ache.so hard to wakeand face another day. burning lightburnishes my plight,casting it intocommon sight. lonely visionslumbering mutely,such resolution, denying what it knowsdeep inside. still I drink and sup from that perfect cupthat feeds all wisdomand peace.
HUMBLE my soul is flowing water, rippling, sweeping gently, sometimes self snagging, on little things. drawn from above, my cells magnetically tugged into their place in the firmament by the greatest star, dancing on fire. maiden of leaves, birds in the trees, covered in dust, sky like rust. heart of silk, flowing purple, bursting open, filling the sky. leave the calf to die in the field. it’s all right. now softly, softly, turn away. it becomes dust. it blows away. my head is filled…read more
One of the things I’ve struggled with most in my life is depression. I’m sure there were several events that triggered this issue, but perhaps the first and most incendiary incident was my mother’s nervous breakdown when I was ten years old. During her hallucination, she stated that the world was ending and this was terrifying to me. I was only a child and didn’t understand that my mother wasn’t in her normal state of mind. I only knew that she was my mother and that everything she said was…read more
Lighthearted: How I Healed From Depression And You Can Too! I lost my cousin, Alec, to suicide at the end of August. I’d already been working on a book about how I healed myself from the severe clinical depression I’ve had for most of my adult life, but losing a loved one really made the need to share what I’ve learned more urgent. I never had a chance to sit down and talk to Alec and let him know that there really is a possibility of finding peace because I…read more
I have a great story to tell about the legend of a family fortune I discovered when conducting research on the Edwards line of my family. I know that one of the best ways to get it out there is to share it with a live audience. As a writer, public speaking doesn’t come naturally to me. The last time I spoke in front of a group was over twenty years ago when I was asked to present my thesis at an anthropology conference in Chicago. Even back then all…read more